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  Name:Jasmine

  Location:Singapore

  Age:17

  Feeling: Fearless!

so much for getting over it/

Monday, August 27, 2007

5:29 PM

Hi people. hahas, i have too much things on my mind now and feeling rather vexed. hahas, nvm, i shall let the pictures do the talking for wad is going through my mind right now..

credits: here

Spellbound\

Monday, August 20, 2007

6:08 PM

i woke up feeling very drowsy and went home from school, feeling drowsy as well. hahas. I had english the first thing in the morning. It was a bit like free period. We were allowed to read the newspaper while some of our classmates tried to complete their argumentative essays. History was next. I think i'm going crazy again. I'm beginning to find history interesting when all i do is the past was to sleep during her lesson. yaya, i know i'm a lazy girl. no point trying to emphasize it as i already know. Mrs Harisdass taught us the reliability of sources and i actually paid attention and took some notes. hoho, i'm such a good girl. hehes. During recess, i ate fried carrot cake while XY ate rice with some vegetables. We wanted to drink the aloe vera drink but the stall holder said that the aloe vera drinks are only available the next day. nvm, i shall drink it tomorrow. I saw him during recess(: Then, we went to the school foyer where NLB books were displayed. No doubt, XY borrowed a chick-lit. hahas. she's a great chick-lit fan. I borrowed a detective story which looked very mysterious, judging on the cover of the book. E maths was after recess. I was so nervous as we were getting back the test today. I thought i flunk it as there was numerous careless mistakes. Thank god, i passed my test. I looked out of the window and saw him again(: He's my lucky charm in my dream, but not physically as he belonged to someone else. Anyway, after Mdm Ong finished going through the test, she went on to go through some of the homework given. Since i finished my homework, i was pretty bored and spent the time daydreaming until she proceeded to solving the question i had problems with. Geography was normal. hahas. Mrs Ng wore a very cute pink dress today. hehe. yaya. wadeva. then it was chinese, and mind you, that person spoiled my day. She keep stressing that we have 7 months to the O level chinese exam. hello, i have enough stress without her adding on to my burdens. Using this 7 months excuse, she changed all our seats except some of the more "guai" ones. XY and I was separated. We knew it because we have been sitting in front of her all the time and didn't pay attention. Like i said before, her lessons neither interest nor inspires me like some other lessons(e.g. chemistry, physics when taught by a funny cher). bleah, though i am sitting with Charles, but Xinyi is at another table next to mine. hahas, so we can continue blabbering crap. Chemistry was after chinese. I wanted her to go through the difficult wksheet but she went on to teach chapt 11 instead. haha. at least i can understand the acids, alkali and bases stuff. I don't have to calculate yet so i am glad. I like equation writing then balancing but asking me to calculate the mole is a big NO-NO. Then, at around 2.20pm, Ms Lim went in and informed us about the upcoming chemistry project. Heck, we were given the most difficult task, but i am determined to take on the challenge and smile my way thru like him. hehes. XY and I went to the library after school with an intention to do history but ended up looking at siti playing games. Then the librarian stopped siti from playing games so she went to check her email. yay! we can get our "travelling together" certificate. Siti asked us whether we would like to collect it today from the HDB hub 4th storey. we agreed. hahas. so we left the library. I walked pass the general office and saw him (:
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yea, so Huiyi appeared and she asked me where we were going, we said that we are going to Toa Payoh Hub. She decided to go together with us. At this moment, a white , Mercedes taxi pulled over. He walked out from the general office carrying lots of boxes. poor thing): hahas, then we found out that he hired the taxi, so rich lor, so can you believe that this guy actually rides a bicycle to school? Maybe he's trying to reduce carbon dioxide emission. so kind (: Anyway, since he had so many boxes to carry, he needed help in opening the taxi door, for this, he asked for our help. Huiyi went forward to help him. As we walked our of the school, his taxi also drove out of the school and XY claimed he waved at us. and among us was me. so the wave was also partly intended for me. OMG. OMG. hahas. seeing him can just make me smile the whole day, even if i fail my test very badly but seeing him will make me feel so good. he has got such a charming smile that can make girls feel dizzy, hahas. He crackled with electricity. I think i can call him a sodium chloride ion, with bonds so strong and when in aqueous solution, conduct electricity. As for me, i am a good conductor of electricity. The mobile ions that transported from his brilliant smile just melt me. My hands was freezing once i saw him. I felt so dizzy. Initially, i had lots of strength to carry my heavy books and even XY's ones. But after his ions transported electric sparks to the good conductor of electricity, i can just faint. I'm kinda glad that i am not the one who opened the taxi door for him. i can get so dizzy that i may faint and poor Siti and Xy have to drag me to the hospital then. he's so so so HOT. hahas. then we went to Toa Payoh HDB Hub. I was so dizzy and cold on the bus. XY touched my hands and said it was very icy cool and she's certain i'm really in love with him. haha, but i'm a bit used to the icy hands effect, everytime he walked past me during Physics SPA, my hands just freeze and i can't conduct my experiment properly, Once he walked to my table and talked to the other girls at my table, i nearly dropped the test tube filled with water. My hands just don't operate properly. He's ceratinly cast a dizzy spell on me and his name is just so divine. I don't dare to say his name out loud even to my friends. I can only speak his name softly. his name is just so magical that i'm so afraid it will lose its magic once i mentioned it too often loudly. anyway, we collected our certificates and went to Mac's. Siti ordered a Mcchicken burger and a chocolate sundae.XY ordered a Mcflurry while i ordered a Strawberry Sundae. XY was blabbering about my love life to Siti but i don't care. I'm still in a daze since i saw him just now...

Sunday, August 19, 2007

12:18 PM

"When we are motivated by goals that have deep meaning, by dreams that need completion, by pure love that needs expressing, then we truly live." -Greg Anderson

Saturday, August 18, 2007

8:11 PM

today is full of ups and downs. Down in spirits at the beginning, but quite high in the end. XDXD, it takes too long to explain everything that happened today( and partly due to the fact that Jasmine is very very lazy, but pls emphasize on the fact that it takes too long to explain everything). I did something memorable today. i ate laksa. yaya, i know i'm weird, but this is the first time in 14 yrs and nearly 8 mths that i ate laksa coz i'm scared of spicy food. hoho, but the experience of eating laksa did not go very well for me. The laksa taste strongly of milk. eeews. Laksa is made of coconut milk, thats why. So, i starved myself for the next 3 hrs during mdm lee's tuition. XY and I was late today but she didn't scold. She taught us the a maths trigonometry again and i finally understand the add-sugar-to-coffee thing. hahas, so cool. I also understand a bit of the bearing thing too. hehes. Surprisingly, i find the time i spent during her tuition today short. At around 4.50pm, when she was giving us the mini test, i was like thinking, huh? so fast? hoho, i think i am getting a little obsessed with trigonometry. She also said that we had to call her during X'mas time to tell her if we want to continue with tuition next yr, i'm afraid that i will forget so i shall type it here, so that i can remember it. ;) We missed the bus 58 coz we stayed back after the tuition. Mdm Lee was teaching the tangent from external point thing. ah, i dont dare to face her once i get back the latest e maths test. i know i've done very very badly for it. =(. After her tuition, we waited at the bus stop for bus 58. we missed the bus again. thanxs to a very stupid guy who was standing up and blocking XY's view. Even when he sat down at last, he still blocked her view. I realised that he was reading Stars Wars. talk about old-fashioned people. No offence to anyone who is a fan of Stars Wars, but i'm very fed up with the guy. I read the chinese book on the bus. I'm left with one last chapter before i returned. I couldn't bear to return the book, its so romantic and sweet can?? But anyway, i still didnt have the chance to read the final chapter. kk, i am too lazy and tired to type more stuff. I saw these interesting biscuit sculptures at J8 and took some pictures of it. i shall let the picture do the talking then.


the Eiffel tower in Paris, if i can only see the real actual one. I want to go Paris lurh.
London Bridge. I'm so gonna go to London someday.



India
Petronas Twin Towers Of KL, if i'm not wrong.


and Our own Singapore- the Esplanade( no offence but it looks more like pineapple).

I think its amazing, can you imagine it? all these were made from biscuits. that perosn who made all these must be pretty patient and has self control. If i were him, i would be fed up with arranging all these sculptures and i will eat it first before doing anything else. hahaha.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

9:46 PM

Something About You
by:Corrinne May.

Don't know what you do to me but
Everytime I'm with you it's a natural high
It's like re-discovering Eden
with chocolate -coated rainbows and cotton candy skies
And everytime you look my way
I wish I had the guts to say

There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.

I think I'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see I'm more than your friend
You'll be tossing and turning
Counting the hours till you see me again
And when we meet you'll
Kiss my hand and say the words I've longed to hear

There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you
You make me want to sing,
make me want to dance,
make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

9:58 AM

I woke up at around 9.25 am today and i finally have a nice and peaceful sleep without dreaming about him, which is considered good news. However, i also dreamt of weird things like the school trying to earn more money by showing the movie transformers in the hall and charging us. =.= I wouldn't mind watching the movie again. its the most awesome science-ficiton movie i've ever seen. hahas. Then i dreamt of going to a place called Bugis for a certain history project but it is different from the real Bugis. The building were slant in a acute angle. Xinyi who was there, doing the project with me found the buildings funny, and instead of history, we started talking about angle of elevation and angle of depression. i think this is a sign of me getting too immersed into trigonometry. =.=. Alas, this is a dream afterall. I will be really freaked out to see building slanting in odd angles. Boy, its just weird, right?

hahas. just a few minutes ago, i was reading Siti's blog entries. *hint hint* Siti's blog is getting rustier with each passing moment, its time for you to update your blog, Siti! opps, i side-tracked again. So, moving on, i read one post that struck me. The post where she said that she would miss Beatty when she graduated. I dont know, but i feel more at home in Beatty than in Kheng Cheng. Maybe this is due to the time i spent in Beatty everyday. I tend to go home straight away after school when i was in Kheng Cheng. In Beatty, it is just a miracle to my grandma that i reach home at around 3 plus. I also had more friends in Beatty than in Kheng Cheng. People like XinYi, Siti, with their bickering and jokes sometimes, can just cheer me up. The teachers in Beatty are nicer than those who had taught me in Kheng Cheng. Most of the form teachers i had in my ex school was kinda biased. In Beatty, i met dedicated teachers(Mdm Ong, Mrs Harisdass, Mrs Ng and many more), a certain lame teacher who never failed to make me laugh(i think XY and Siti will know the answer to this) and strict yet a good teacher who inspired me to like literature and feel more motivated to do my best in English(Ms E.Tan). We also suffered together during Red Cross trainings. Although Red Cross is gonna closed down after the secondary three batch passed out, its still quite fun during Red Cross. We cracked lame jokes, learnt together and suffered together during those long footdrill time. However, life in Beatty is not always smooth sailing. I failed lots of tests this yr. Facing with some mean old bitches and sons of those witches can be a torture sometimes. The problems I've encountered again and again during group projects the past two yrs. I think i'll still miss Beatty. LOL. i know i'm not hose sec four who are abotu to graduate but its just a sudden realisation that I have about 1 yr and 3 mths left in Beatty. Once i graduated and entered into polytechnic(i hope!) , life will never be the same again. My friends may not be in the same institute/courses with me, Projects are very very common in Polys, I've got to be independent when in Poly. hoho, the impending doom is near. Those who know me well will never put the word"independent" beside my name. hahas, i'm too dependent for my own good. When i graduated, there will be things that i will miss like, my favourite subjects which has no use in poly courses( according to XY's brother) but i still enjoy studying them , those dedicated teachers and that lame teachers, my precious locker, the spaghetti in Stall 5 and many more food, Red Cross, putting on the uniform though i find it ugly sometimes( hell, i have to crack my head to choose wad clothes to wear when i'm in poly) and many more. When i was in p6, i can't wait to leave the school as i hated lots of people who made my life hell. There are still people who made my life hell right now but i dont think i will hate Beatty because of them. lalalas, i suddenly realised that i am like, promoting Beatty? >< . I'm just typng whatever is on my mind. Clear my mind before going for tuition or else i won't be able to concentrate. oh yes! If theres one last thing i miss after i leave Beatty, i will miss Mdm Lee's tuition. Though its boring, but i've improved in maths after the tuition. I will miss her lollipops and biscuits. I will also miss the long bus trips to and fro her house. I tend to daydream and relax on these bus trips. hahas, i think i had blogged enough for today. Gtg, or else XY will skin me alive if i'm late.

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

8:37 PM

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! i know its a bit early. hahas, I'd rather the school let us have a whole week holiday, but never mind that. School's been a bore lately. i don't know why, i'm losing interest in science, especially Chemistry. All the calculations is driving me nuts. Worse still, there's Physics SPA next wed. =(. Wadeva la, i think i'm reconsidering Chemical Engineering as an ideal course, because i just suck at calculating chemical reactions and all. I'm seriously losing interest in science. hahas.

Anyway, the school celebrated National Day today. The observance ceremony(those recollections and all..) was quite funny. For the response, those selected people were required to do funny actions and talk at the same time e.g.Democracy!Democracy!(waves flag in the air) hohoho. Ok, i'm being rather mean here. It was the concert next. This yr's concert quite boring, with things like chinese dance ,indian dance and more. Perhaps the most interesting part is when some of the teachers sang the national day songs. Those teachers are Ms E.Tan, Ms Chua, Mr Cheong and Mr Chan M.F. I hate to admit it, but Ms Chua is the one who sang the best. After the concert, I waited for XY and Siti to change out of their RC uniform. We went to library with Shena and Shermaine. I borrowed The Perfect Summer by Luanne Rice and Something like love by Catherine Dunne. I'm planning to spend my holidays doing my homework, studying my tests and reading. I haven't been reading much lately. Hopefully, by reading, i can ease off some of the pain that have been with me all this time. i've heard that literature can help people feel better. i certainly hope it will. Nvm, i side-tracked again, so after we left the library, we headed for lunch. I had a big bowl of seafood soup(with fire underit, scary) with noodles for $3.50. I think my $3.50 is worth it as it is nice and yummy. its indescribable, okay? Shena, Shermaine and Siti left first, leaving XY and I behind drinking the delicious soup XD. We went to buy bubble tea opposite my house. Then we went to my hse to slack. hahas. o ya, u have got to try out this game,"love arrows" on miniclips. this game has got me and xinyi addicted. its like ur the love cupid, shooting down hearts from the sky to help those lonely people on earth to find love. ya, i know, sweet right? sometimes, i wish i can be an angel, looking down from heaven to see those sweet couples in love but its hard for me, i guess. I can get jealous rather easily. The recent jealousy i felt was his beloved gf. haiz. theres no point in harbouring hopes for him anymore. its really no use. ain't i stupid? holding on to a person which is so impossible. Again and again, i try to tell myself to get rid of him in my head, but i can't. i hate myself sometimes. I hate to break people's relationship, but from the way i feel towards him,its really hard to control myself sometimes. perhaps i have to find another guy to fall for, i cannt like him anymore.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

11:25 PM

i haven't been blogging diligently this few days due to the fatc that my homework is piling up and i have NDP and Japanese Cultural programme rehearsals. Life's been quite stressful but i cna still handle it. X) he's right. Once i'm used to it, sec 3 life will be easier. hahas, something sweet happened to me today, but i shall not elaborate on that. its a secret XD. ok, i've just finished my maths homework and too tired to blog too much. I think i shall just post parts of the lyrics of the songs that i currently love right now.

"Why Do I Love You" by DJ Bounce
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Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
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Ain't gonna show no
Weakness
I'm gonna smile
And tell the whole world I'm fine
I'm gonna keep my senses
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you
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Baby your smiling face oh no
I can think of nothing else but you

"Contagious" by Avril Lavigne
When you're around I don't know what to do
I do not think that I can wait
To go over and to talk to you
I do not know what I should say


And I walk out in silence
That's when i start to realize
What you bring to my life
Damn this guy can make me cry

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So I walk out in silence
That's when i start to realize
What you bring to my life
Damn this guy can make me smile

"Beautiful Disaster" By Kelly Clarkson


He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
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I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
Waited so long

"Daydream"
You're my daydream, you know that I've been thinking about you... lately
And everytime I look at you
I can't explain I feel insane, I can't get away
You're my daydream

And you know, and you know, and you know, and you know,
You're making me insane
And you know, and you know, and you know, and you know,
You're doing it again

If I tell you what I'm thinking,
If I let myself trust you
Can you give me what I'm missing
Can you make my dreams come true

and of course, my all-time favourite: "Things i'll Never Say"
I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin' to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
And i'm searching for the words inside my head

Cuz I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

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If I could see what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

(What is)What's wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away
I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say.

oh yea, that reminds me. I stuttered terribly again during one of today's lesson, and mind you, its freakingembarassing. :(

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